Friday, July 15, 2005

Letter to Madena

My dearest Madena,
Thank you again for your in-sites and for taking time
to respond to my queries...
You are a good pal....
My father suffered a sever hart attack. His main
arterial vain collapsed on him while he was running a
weed-eater on his farm....he is 74....always been a
very strong man....but now....(thank God he
survived)....he must make many changes....that he will
not want to make....
Mom is 73.....but she is in good enough health to take
care of him so far....I have five younger sisters, and
one older, who are there to help also....in fact they
made it a point for me to know that they are in charge
of everything.....which is fine with me.....but I know
that this will wreck havoc on the Old Man's male
ego.....he believes, as do I....that men are not
supposed to show weakness of any kind publiclly or to
the family...especially to the women....it actually
scares the women (most of them) and makes them feel
quite uneasy. This is actually in the human Q
code....the quintessential source of all
humanity...the words that we....and all
existence....were created by...that original
mathematical, sequential, poetic and beautiful
language is still there...in the very core of our
human souls (mentally, physically, and spiritually)
the problem is....we only use a very small part....95%
is dormant..we truly have degenerated from our
original state of being....any one (Darwinist,
atheist, evolutionist, humanist...etc...etc...etc) who
does not recognize the truth of existence by master
design..IS NUTS!.....
sorry about that tangent of thought....guess I had to
get it off my chest!
Honey, I am not afraid of mortality.....or anything...
at this age....but I do repectfully fear
immortality...."what dreams may come to plague us
beyond this mortal coil"...(incidentally, how did
Shakespeare know, seven centuries ago, that humanity
was nothing but a mortal coil - DNA?)...I truly
believe that physical demise is a temporal state of
being....just as physical life is....AND here is the
rub.....nothing is lost....everything, all matter,
energy, space and time....will be
regenerated...at...and upon... the appointed time...
when time will no longer exist... all things being
eternal.....even my X-wives...imagine that.....
Actually I am kidding...I truly love all three of them
to death...Desiring for them the greater good....just
can't stand their company for very long at all....much
less for eternity..
I have herd it said that eternity is huge....but I
wonder what that would mean where time and distance
and divisions of separation are meaningless.....
Even Christ mentioned this in his last formal teaching
prayer....just after the obsrevance of the final,
eternal, Passover dinner...He prayed..."Keep these who
you have given me... one with me... as I am one with
you...Father!"...This is a phenomenal statement that
most people...esp. religious people...do not
understand at all...
anyway...I'll stop this rambling
I have given Eliza a ring....one that she picked out.
It is not the most expensive ring of its type....but
it is unique....white and yellow gold....very nicely
designed with a diamond cluster....
I told her that if she wanted an engagement ring, a
solitaire was more traditional...
She said, "This one I like... valinte amor ers tu...
(roughly translated - you, my very fine lover) but...
as to marriage.... I do not say yes... or no....but
only...wait and see."
She will be back in Honduras next week....and I will
be in Missouri visiting my Father.....and neither of
us know when we will get back to South Carolina.....
In fact...I have the gut feeling that if I seriously
pursue this...(her)...I must go to Honduras....which I
was planning to do anyway...it is a naturally
beautiful country...though politically, a mess...which
is why we began to communicate in the first
place.....she was teaching me Spanol...and I was (am
still) a serious student of her language and
culture....this affair decor...just seemed to happen
by natural design...
my Irish friend Pattie, who I still do not sleep with,
says - in her normal cynical way - "its a damn set-
up!"
She could be right.....BUT.....so what?....there is
always Rio!
And my Latino instructor has taught me very well
indeed!

Have you read my children's stories on line? I would
be flattered if you liked them well enough to read
them to those little minds of mush you a voluntarily
trying to gel into comprehension...
I am proud of you for this work you are doing.....it
is important....wish I could join you sometime.
If you check out the books for cabbages...
http://www.sunshinedixieland.com/Booksforcabbages.html
You may also want to check out Eliza's latest...
http://www.sunshinedixieland.com/eliza.html she is a
gifted natural poet in her own language...although she
struggles with English (so do I... as you know) and
she writes with a sensual honesty that I believe to be
important to the literature of the Americas in this
new century....
Your criticism would be welcomed...as a friend...as I
am her publisher...for now.
OK. that's about it for now.....
Hope you are doing well...and please send me something
good to read.....that you have sweat-ed, pro-fained,
and worked over.....
just kidding....send as little...or as much as you
can...however you came by it.
Always Yours,
Stephen

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